I would like to reply, but we already spoke on the phone.  I may reply later right here. 

I just want to tell you that you have been a wonderful and amazing friend all these years.  And as a sub you have come a long way and I am very proud of you. 
It was our mistake both, you for getting carried away in your feelings, and me for not keeping a safe distance.  We got too close and things got crowded. 

As I said before all we can do is learn from our mistakes and go forward. 
I will be happy to keep you only as a friend if you would like.  But I prefer to keep you as my sub. 
We just need to find our balance.

I wrote the rules. I want this to work out, so I am trying to tighten up the sails or the ship won't sail.  I care so much for you and this is why we need structure.